Wonderful world! Here I come!

I love to see a happy smiling baby!  I sometimes marvel at the possibilities which lie ahead, and wonder what life will bring for that tiny innocent individual.

When I look at this photo of me it makes me smile to see how cheerful I am and how as I reach out I seem to be saying, “Hello world. Here I come!  I’m ready to take on life with all its potential and promises!”

Thankfully I was completely unaware of what life was to bring. I didn’t know that at the age of 3 my mum was going to abandon me never to be seen again. Or that I would grow up with an abusive father who made my life a living hell leaving me with nightmare memories long after he died.  Looking at my contented face it would be hard to guess that at 15 I would become an alcoholic to block out the pain of my childhood and that 20 years later the combination of depression and alcoholism would nearly kill me.

Then again, I could have reassured that child by telling her that after the storm came the calm. I could astound her and inspire with how I would survive and reclaim my faith and with it my life.  That through sobriety I would be set free from the prison of my mind by forgiveness, honesty, serenity and joy.

How I wish I could have told that precious infant that she would find the courage to heal from rejection and would be able to love and be loved unconditionally.

Of course the awesomeness of a baby is its purity and its unblemished spirit. It can’t understand what the future could hold and doesn’t need to. But if I had the chance, I would have told myself, “No matter what happens, never stop reaching out. Grab everything wonderful the world has to offer!”


55 thoughts on “Wonderful world! Here I come!

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  2. Looks like you are getting off to a wonderful start with your new blog Carolyn. You will be a wonderful example for others. You are a winner.

    Life can hand us a bad hand sometime, but we can alway turn it into something wonderful and positive and is sounds like that is what you have done. GOOD for you!

    Thank you for sharing your story and I look forward to hearing more of what you have to say.
    Gods blessings to you,

  3. As children we have no fear of rejection, but are open to all possibilities. Then something happens, we lose our ability to “let it go” and take on that negative image of ourselves.

    All of us have been through things or have done things that we’re not proud of, BUT, (and this is a big BUT) It’s how you view yourself that makes all the difference in the world.

    A great example that comes to mind is the movie “Little Miss Sunshine”. This little girl is full of love, energy and creativity, and because she didn’t have the same upbringing as the rest of the audience, she’s viewed as inappropriate when her intentions were pure. (Kids get it, and they don’t have all the weird stuff grown ups carry around with them)

    If we could all be “who we really are”, let go of the NON-sense, Oh how free we would be! Happy, Healthy, & Guilt Fee! 🙂

    • Thank you for your insightful comments Jane! You are so right in that children have a different perception of the world and that can change into seeing things in a negative way.
      And you make a good point that if we could be ‘who we really are’ its both our mind and body that benefit!

  4. Wow! Great article. I praise God that He, by HIS power and strength, has pulled you through, shown you a better life, and brought you into a place of forgiveness, joy, and peace. May He continue to richly bless you!

  5. Awesome Carolyn. I love to see or read stories of victory in people’s lives. It makes me happy!!! Woohoo! There is that certain ‘something’ inside of us looking for survival – and it’s always been hiding in there waiting to come out. So proud of you! YOU are an OVERCOMER!!! No longer being victimized, YOU are a VICTOR!!! xox

  6. What a cracking start to your blog, Carolyn! You’ve walked a long hard path back to that happy confidence you exuded as a baby, and now you have so much to share

  7. Congratulations on your new blog! I agree with comments above – what a way to start! I look forward to reading and getting to know you better!

  8. I agree with Dorien, this was a superb start to your new blog. Really set the tone for how the Hurt Healer could relate to others that have been hurt. My heart ached for that precious bundle with her arms out knowing what was ahead of her. Great first post!

  9. I think this is such a generous first post and one that we can all relate to! Make sure you keep me informed as I know you will be a great addition to my new group 🙂

  10. What a wonderful new start to your new blog, Carolyn. Just imagine how different things would have been if you could have gone back and told that precious little baby “No matter what happens, never stop reaching out. Grab everything wonderful the world has to offer!”…you are an inspiration and I love the way you write…great post!

    • Thank you Sherie for such kind comments. It always thrills me when someone tells me that they love the way I write. It’s taken a long time to believe in myself and my ability to write, so comments like yours make my day!

  11. One of the healthiest (and most empowering) things we can do, Carolyn, is to go back in our minds to that baby … or however we see our inner child or childhood personna … and close the loop by making it clear that as adults we will never let her go through that again. That we are in charge now, are the responsible one and will provide the safety and security that was oh-so-absent during those years. (And, yes, we all have that forgiveness and loop-closing work to do …) Brava on your beautiful new site, that’s as shiny and optimistic as that baby with outreached arms!

    • Sharon, thank you for such insightful comments! Making the connection between our childhood and our adult life is something I will be exploring further on The Hurt Healer. I love your description of ‘loop-closing’!

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